Streaming video games isn’t for me.
*gigantic, massive sigh of relief*
This was a tough realization for me to uh… realize. I couldn’t really believe that the prospect of “playing video games and potentially making money from playing said video games” would ever remotely seem unappealing, because on paper that sounds amazing.
The reality of streaming video games reared its ugly head when I started to witness the overall vibe and expression of full-time streamers. I’m definitely not going to name any names or discredit anyone for their hard work and dedication to being a full-time streamer, but I am starting to notice a mental health struggle amongst them.
For me, streaming is going to be more focused on something that is more relevant to my interests and less about the status quo, if there even is such a thing. I mean, these streamers who become bazillionaires typically playing/mastering one-ish game(s) have to wonder if there’s more to their existence than that. Right? Am I crazy?
Then again, I suppose it’s not much different than working a job you once loved that ended up becoming a grind.
I have a fear of being in situations like that, and the last thing I want to do is paint myself in a corner doing one thing, even if the place I’m painting is a palace. So, I’m taking a step back from personal streaming to figure out what I want to do. I have a good idea, but it needs refining. Don’t worry; Psychostick is still figuring out their thing with live performances on Twitch. It’ll be separate. Mostly.
It is liberating to take a step back and go, “You know, as much as I thought streaming video games would be for me, it really isn’t, and I’m not going to force it.” Initially it made sense in my head. I’m a performer. I love video games. Twitch is performing and playing video games at the same time. It SHOULD work for me, but it just isn’t jiving.
I suspect it’s because video games are a recreational thing for me, and trying to make that my living just takes away the pure enjoyment I get from getting lost in a game. I love that feeling; being immersed in another world with super powers or the like. Trying to perform and play the game at the same time just takes me out of the game, and that right there, from my perspective, defeats the purpose of playing video games.
So hats off to you streamers out there who can keep it fun and fresh for yourselves while making a living doing so. I wish you the best of luck and I hope that you always have fun and never experience burnout.
That being said, I have a bit more of a plan for streaming that won’t involve games (mostly). I’m fairly certain most of it will end up being related to music, but as I mentioned above, I need to do a bit more planning before I dive too far into it. I’m not even sure if I’ll keep that under the Psychostick name, but either way, I’m really excited to try this out and I hope it feeds my creative interests rather than burn me out. Time will tell.